me
"SHE'S"
I am often caught in my own imaginary world
Often misunderstood as ignorant and cold
Come deep into my beautiful and creative world
Allow yourself to get mesmerized into it
Read into my thoughts and experience my soul
Listen with patience and you shall find joy with me
Understand me with love so that u may receive true love
I am who i am and i will always be
How i appear to be, i may not be
How i want to be, i may not become
But who i am deep inside me, i am indeed
Love me with thy heart so that i will be loved
11:10 PM
Sunday, November 19, 2006
[Chorus]
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
[Chorus]
Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care
[Chorus]
What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep
[Chorus]
3:10 AM
Sunday, November 12, 2006
Ahh...after so long time of holiday, feel bored liao...now its lk 3:03am and im not slping ....i feel i crazy...i need to do something tiring in the morning and afternoon....so i will feel tired in the nite...@_@ And i feel so relaxed and i am enjoying my time of wasting time...haha cos i get to do wad i wish to do without thinking abt work...and i get to choose and enjoy creating fun tings....lk recently i've jus redecorated my bible haha so fun.......Here some pic of it...
Hmm....ya..i guess the reason why im bored is that all my frens not free...ping,schling so busy...juan2 she working and cannot go out happy w me, watch movie...sigh...than dennis in china...boring lai...than i miss the time i always hang out w juan2...i guess mayb wen we grow up,we will b busy with our career...well..i miss the time wen we go out watch movie..at woodlands...and take the couple seat..so shiock..and wen we go out shopping, swimming...wa laoz...why mus we grow up...sick...i wish we dun grow up...we will still b in high sch...and enjoying the innocence..well i guess i cant bear to face up to the reality of that we all grow up and will tend to drift away from some aquainted fren...or classsmates..and get to spent lesser time w close frens and family..well well well...time to face up to it..time to accept it...Recently, i learnt that, unless we learn to FACE UP to reality and ACCEPT wad we need to do and wad problems we have, we will be able to handle it better...be able to be less upset with it and complain lesser..
You know, the ting about having long holiday for me is, that i get to do alot o thinking and getting in touch with myself...get to listen to my own heart cry..that is good for me...i guess there is so much ting i wanna do..but than i jus cant rmb wad...and even if i wanna go out ah...no one company me...haha...all so busy...its always that Lasalle start holiday earlier than polys....zzz...anyw..we grow up real fast....3 yrs past jus lk that...my time in Lasalle have been a challanging and yet a proud to be in it time...it's always been my pride to be schling in lasalle..bcos i get to be different and learn designing...and get to discover tings i've nv knew...we all grow up so fast that we are starting our own future and career...juan2,working...dennis,china training for work....sister,GC training for fulltime in campus crusade for christ...sigh...soon it will be me...out from sch...in 6mths time...i wonder wad would i do...would i survive...?? hard hard....hmmm... u know the process of looking for a place in the reality job...its hard to find a place for ourselves..sometimes i think, wad would i be in 10 years time...i wonder...
But than....finally i felt...there would always be uncertainty..so...who would know my future best? of cos...there would b only one...that would be God...and so, hereby, i would wanna commit my future in his hand...trusting that he would and he will pave a way for me...His ways are higher than my way...His will, will always be perfect....Therefore i would like to end here with a verse...that is:
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything in prayer and petitions, with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your heart and your mind in Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4: 6-7
2:33 PM
Thursday, November 09, 2006
L'Amore Sei Tu, is a brand created by me for this Victorian Handmade bear....This are some of shots i took for my Victorian bear....They are all handmade...The designs are made in cooperated with Victorian history...This one is about Queen Victorian...They are limited Edition...Handmade 100%....Made from 100% cotton...All natural..Have fun viewing my work!! Hope u guys love it....
12:31 AM
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
Ahhhh.....finally the Sem has ended..finally got time to write blog...heez...no guilt..la la...im kinda happy u know cos i am able to do wad i wanna do wen i wish to do wen im doin my wk...feels so GREAT! haha.....i praise God for carrying me thru tis few mths of trials and tough times....times which is so hard for me to go thru...which i struggled to get ideas and inspiration...times which i struggle with sch system and lect....he sent people to help me... which i finally realiesed who is a real fren to me...in my times of difficulties...they go thru it with me....I realli give glory to God for he is always there to look after me...sometimes wen he see me feeling hopeless and lost...when i do not know how to handle situations...he sent people, my frens to console and listen and help me out in actions...i have a deep gratitude towards God in heaven for his love for me...even tho sometimes it seems not visible..that God is actually loving me by providing for me...that we tend to think its chance,luck,coincidence,or look into ourself that we have good frens bcos we are good..we deserve it...but fact and truth indepth, its the grace of God that has been tagging along with my disobedience and me...Grace being with me doesnt allows me to keep on being who i am...but it taught me to live life daily as careful as possible....His providence for me shows me how much he actualli knows abt me and love me...in such a big world..with millions and millions of people here....im nothing...but yet, he sees me as someone that he wish to love, to care, to give, to look after for...he is the only one that treasure me and knows my ideas,my thoughts,my struggles and my inner most hurt...who can compare with him...In life, we take tings for granted...the hse we live, the clothes that we buy with our money, the environment we are in....we dun bother to ask why am i here? who allows me to be here...? Since wen do i deserve to get a cloth to be wrapped ard my body...we all thinks that its normal u see...but the TRUTH is that...WE dun...we are here..for a reason...a reason that everyone is looking for....looking for a purpose to motivate us to live..to be deserved...a reason to be love...to be HERE....Why am i even here for??
Because Jesus Died for U and Me............
2:16 AM
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Tis morning i fought a fierce battle...without any medication jus depending on my immune system..and i won!!! muahahahah!!! let me tell u wad happened...
I woke up tis morning feeling sick and weak...my bones are sore, my throat is scratching and rough, with a bad headache and my body feels hot...! sigh...a bad sign..and jus nice i felt lk peeing..so i went to toilet..but i cannot walk well..so i jus step by step slowly bring myself to e toilet...so sucky..than i went back to slp...actualli supposedly meeting lect henry for show him my ideas, but i was too sick, i decided to pray and ask God to heal me...so, i wen to rest....and i slpt alll the way till 4pm...and i woke up a couple o times..and in the end managed to fight it...i woke up and i sat on the chair in my kitchen..trying to psycho myself to feel better..wanted to take panadol, but it didnt say " gentle on stomach" so i didnt take...i went to had milo...and bread w peanut butter...than took panadol after that...it took me a long process to get those stuff down...it was torture to me...haha! didnt have anyone at home to make me porriage...so i had simple food...after awhile i need to meet ping...so i went to bath...i felt my body was very hot...after i showered i felt totally great..haha...like recovered person..than i went out and i felt heathy..and good...better than the sick person lying on the bed all day...
i felt so proud of myself that im able to fight this virus inside of me..within half a day..i guess it was determination...and i praise God for healing me and answering my prayer..I guess God wanted me to rest and i enjoyed the afternoon resting in bed...Thank God...
2:37 AM
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
This is the first time i am starting this blog. Dear frens, i hope that u guys would benefit from it. 'L'Amore Sei Tu', meaning 'i will always love u' is being inspiried by a song sung by Katherine Jenkins. I tot it was a beautiful song. A song that speaks forth of love that's forever,unconditional love. Jus like how Jesus allows God to break him and send his rage and anger, for sin in our lives, on him. Carrying the burdensome cross, thats filled with ugly, evil, dark sins, that is created by us in the past, present and the future to come. He is willing and humble. His love for us is unconditional. Jesus died for u and me. For one reason, L'Amore Sei Tu.
Hmm....ya..i guess the reason why im bored is that all my frens not free...ping,schling so busy...juan2 she working and cannot go out happy w me, watch movie...sigh...than dennis in china...boring lai...than i miss the time i always hang out w juan2...i guess mayb wen we grow up,we will b busy with our career...well..i miss the time wen we go out watch movie..at woodlands...and take the couple seat..so shiock..and wen we go out shopping, swimming...wa laoz...why mus we grow up...sick...i wish we dun grow up...we will still b in high sch...and enjoying the innocence..well i guess i cant bear to face up to the reality of that we all grow up and will tend to drift away from some aquainted fren...or classsmates..and get to spent lesser time w close frens and family..well well well...time to face up to it..time to accept it...Recently, i learnt that, unless we learn to FACE UP to reality and ACCEPT wad we need to do and wad problems we have, we will be able to handle it better...be able to be less upset with it and complain lesser..
