SHE

6:07 PM

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Has my potential been unleashed?
Sometimes i wonder, how people view
me as from the outside...
A lady that dresses up, who loves shopping,
who is talkative, who seems shallow or deep?
i wonder truly..

If i get a chance, If i get a wish one day..
To wish for anything i want,
i wish that i can be everyone for jus one day
for each of you..
Sometimes i wish i get to understand
how each one of us feels...
wad kinda agony,struggles,pain,laughter,joy,happiness
everyone feels..
i wish i can read and know how each of you
feel and think..
At this point of time, you guys shld be screaming ur
heads off and stopping me from invading into ur brains...
lol...
somehow i feel that tis is a crazy tot and moment..
Somehow its not possible to understand
how everyone feels, think and act..

sometimes i feel lost..
sometimes i feel sad..
sometimes i feel depressed..
sometimes i feel happiness..
sometimes i feel joy that i can share..
Yet sometimes i feel nothing at all..

I have no conclusion and therefore God knows me...

{That Makes You King Of Me, Lord}

10:01 PM

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

My thoughts:
I really miss playing the keyboard for the Lord in church...
Jus nice that, it's praise team's turn to lead worship...
and i onli get to wait for the coming month..
Seriously, it's my passion to play the keyboard...
Playing is one of the ways to express my Love to the Lord...
I jus gets excited all inside wen i know that i'll be playing...
but gets upset inside wen i dun get to serve for awhile...

My Frustrations:
Humbly, Me being a vessel for the Lord used to serve him
in the church to lead ppl to worship by playing, is not being made
used enough and not being stretched alot at all...
i get to onli play once per month...alternate month...
wen its seem awhile but makes me feel lk its been years i'm not
serving..i often felt so upset which not been known to ppl...
its lk "God i wanna serve u but why aren't I playing..SIGH..."
i feel a gust of air stucked inside of my lungs...
lk its clogging inside..we used to have combines and i enjoy
playing w the Shaloms..but now its not happening...
i kinda felt lk God is glorified thru the times we had
combine worship team..but probably man is not willing
due to fatigue..
(not directed at anyone nor blaming anyone jus letting it out)

My Emotions:
Everytime i listens to a hillsong thats piano solo...
i get so sucked into it..the beauty of that song...
the way e pianist expresses themselves thru e tunes and melody..
it really amazes me, makes me praise God for it..
and often wished i am playing it...

Recently:
I have a sense of need and urge to improve on my playing
so that i can express myself much much more while i'm playing
for the Lord during worship in church...so i tot i wanna educate myself
further in believer's music...i pray that if its God will he will provide me..

My Excitement:
The talent and Gift that God had blessed me has been increased
and developed by God for tis 9 years in church...
As now, he has made himself glorified thru me...
As even how much i can play now, it is asking to be
further developed to be better and much greater so as
God can use me further for much much more greater plan
he had in mind for me...i know that he can use me to magnify
himself to others...therefore the urge to want to
improve myself had increased too...

{Use Me Mightily Oh Lord}

11:09 PM

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Some Memories of that day...

My Appreciation To: Dennis, Henry & Juan for
sacrificing ur time to doing the BBQ shopping
together i enjoyed the process 2gether w u guys
& thx for ur moral support for me thru out.
Thx Mummy for supporting me in this celebration
Lastly thx everyone for coming on that day! I had fun!

[TO ENLARGE CLICK ON PIC]

My "fake" blow

Mummy's Love & Me *Hee*

Oh no its my "act cute" Cuz!

My fav gals in my life...*Muacks*

Ah Ping & Me..My Closest Buddy in YMCA days!

Special Dennis & Me! *shy*

'V' for Vet, 'C' for Chris! My twin! Yey~~

Trudy my closest fren in Lasalle days manz!
(oh that's Ivan, Trudy's Bf keke)

Thank you for being part of my life...

Spot the difference?
HAHA!! Chris shot e left poto, Shawn e right one..

The Cheeky Young Adults & Frens!

{We Praise You Lord}

8:06 PM

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Why is everyone so Busy this days?
Everyone is Living a life of their own.
Everyone is Carving a life of their own,
A Successful Career.

But,what the hell am I Waiting for?
What on earth am I Procrastinating for?
Am i going to find a Job soon?
Is anyone going to Hire me?

Do not be afraid to face the Monster World.
They are just Nothing but A Movie.
They Crush u and Eat u up,
But there is always a Happy Ending.

Go! Do not Fear and Wish for a Happy Ending.
Go! Be Brave and Try and Strive Hard for it.
Go! Do not Look Back but Just Do It.
Go! So that there can still be Hope left.

{Struggling Soul Within}

12:44 AM

Saturday, July 07, 2007

I feel Special and Loved,
I feel Happy and Wonderful,
I feel Perfect yet Imperfect,
Someone made me Happy,
He made it Perfect,
You made it Enjoyable,
One day,
Just one day,
You will be Mine.

{Anonymous}

6:12 PM

Thursday, July 05, 2007

Today i feel BLUE...
dono why..jus blue...
today is thurs yet i feel blue...
why why why....
hmm.....
today is not a good day...
better stay home...
=/

{She's Just Being Moody}

1:17 PM

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

Today i jus wanna say that,
I ENJOY AND I LOVE WATCHING
GREY'S ANATOMY!!!!
i've watched season 1 2 3
for so many million of times...
i feel lk all of them are real...
LOL!!!!!!

{Pardon Her,She Is Jus A Little Crazy}

6:09 PM

Monday, July 02, 2007

FAITH
comes when we believe in the
Lord's will for us in our lives.
When we allows the Lord to take
over us and our own wills, and
to be used as a vessel or a mouth
piece of an instrument by God,
to work thru us, thats where,
nothing is impossible for us.
Faith is not a miracle unless
we allow God to take over
to work a miracle thru us
in people's lives.

{Lord Your Grace Continues To Amaze Me}

12:31 AM

Sunday, July 01, 2007

woo....
I had great fun @ e party that day..
meeting up with old frensy...
hows hard to come by...
the moment i saw them i goes..
"oh hi....long time no see, how are u?!"
haha....i really enjoyed myself till i was so damn
tired e moment i got on to the train on my way
home than...phew....
took some pics there too....the collage that i spent my 3 yrs
of lasalle life @ is gg to be gone soon...
we are moving but i wont b ther..
well life still goes on...
yup...
We enjoy our time with band performing and DJs
playing rock and hip hop musics...
it was damn loud and enjoyable...
great time of hang out...
=)

{there goes again}