GOD,
I do not know how to go about explaining
how i feel right now...
Confusion about how shld i go about
living my life...

This friday is IDMC day 1.
I feel quite reluctant to spend my whole day
on a event jus like that.

I strive so hard upon trying to plan
my day, having fun, doing meaningful tings,
with my frens and family in spite of
all tis busyness.

Somehow, all of a sudden, i feel, all is in vain.

But, somehow, strangely,
i sense that u pave the way for me to be there,
even things like creating a chance for me
to be have a off day on fri.

It's amazing.
But all of sudden,
i realised,
'hey yvette, you got the whole purpose wrong here..'
i realised that HS is speaking to me that,
the purpose tt i am gg for IDMC,
is not to fill up my schedule and maximise
my off day and weekend..
its not meant to be this purpose..

But,
God , you meant to for me to meet you there,
to hear from you there.
Therefore, i realised,
i have to set aside my mind, soul and heart,
to meet you there during this few days of IDMC.
It's a total providence in terms of time, setting, date, for me.
And God, IDMC, i am doing it for you.

Lead me O God, I pray.

[Weary & Confused]